In the past, before infertility, I used to have a specific group of people as my inner circle in my sacred chamber. I believed with all my heart and soul that they would be there forever. I believed that they were my chosen ones and that nobody else could take their places. Infertility shredded that view to pieces and now my inner circle consists of random empathetic people who enter that sacred spot and stay there for a while with me and my pain. I am thankful for and cherish those people and their presence in my sacred chamber and then let them go. I more than welcome them if they happen to drop by again, but if they don't, I'll cherish the moment that they spent there with me.
P.S. Here's a view of the gloriously pink sky outside today. It was -25'C when I took this photo.
So beautiful!!! I love love love this post
ReplyDeleteJust as cold today, so staying inside. :-) Glad you enjoyed it. :-)
Delete"I'll cherish the moment that they spent there with me." That is very much my view on friendship now. If they stay, or if they go, I'm grateful for the time I had those people in my life. I can't regret the friendships I had with friends who have now drifted away from me. We were together when we needed to be, and that is a gift.
ReplyDeleteLove your photo, but -25C? Brrrrr!
Yep, it feels more freeing this way. I tend to keep some people in my heart in a too tight grip and it's not healthy.
DeleteWell, Mali, at least it's dry cold here, so not too bad as long as you layer up pretty well. :-)
Brrrr! That pic looks cold but gorgeous! I consider you to be in my inner circle. My inner circle definitely changed between the time when I was infertile with hope to my now childfree self.xoxo
ReplyDeleteDipitie, I consider you my inner circle, too. I can totally relate to the need to connect with people like us who end up without children.
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